Self-Discovery Channel

national novice debate

2009-03-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, this is my reflection on national novice debate 2009

We have fun but sad to say we didnt manage to break. :(...i felt kinda dissapointed. Here is some recaps on the rounds based on my experience.

Round 1:
We have chosen the motion THW remove any race identification in Malaysia. We get the opposition.

This round we didnt win. I thought we have high possible chance to win since the gov comes out with such a weak problem of why they need to remove any race identification. They also didnt manage to show the effects of removing race identification altough we keep harping on mechanism of removing identity, societal acceptance as well as the effect of removing race identity. Perhaps, it's my fault also that I didnt manage to make clear of everything..sigh...also, the sitting are extremely weird. opposition sits at the front rows, the gov sits at the back row, and the adjud sits far away that he only can see our back...sigh...What i can say is perhaps, this is just a warm up for us since the chemistry between my teamates and i havent mixed.

Round 2:
We chose the motion THW allow abortion in the case of physical deformities. We get the goverment.

This round we won with a clear margin although we nearly get penalised. We set a very narrow case that it is unfair for the opposition. We would only allow abortion if the child would suffer without cure after they are born and will die at the age of one years old...we refer these child as those who born with an impairment - lack of brains, legs, hands, abnormal....I know it's kinda unfair for the opposition to say anything about it... Yet, our prime minister manage to set a very clear this proposal on how it will be carried out and how we are going to allow abortion. Our deputy prime minister, which the adjud says she is the best speaker for the room, managed to make lots of assumptions towards opposition side since the leader of opp have nothing to say after being attacking by us...towards the end for the opposition team, especially the opp whip, a lot of issues start to come out but didnt manage to save their team...we felt quite sorry for them because we create such an unfair case.

Round 3:
We chose the motion THBT lifestyles choices should be taken into consideration when receiving organs. We get the gov again.

This round we won with a close margin. This round is superbly crazy. One of the opponents is the african american - i assume. The opposition didnt understand what we are talking about and we cant understand theirs as well. I just manage to get some gists of what they are saying because i know some of their accent...alright, putting that aside...we create such a stupid problem by saying that we lack of organ in the country. so before deciding on which patient to give to, we will look into their lifestyles choices. we will make priority to those who have healthy lifestyle, and if there is a leftover, we will give to those who with unhealthy lifestlye. We make craps by refering lifestlyes choices to those alcholics and the organs, we refer it as liver. I am not sure why suddenly the opposition team came out with smoking which the leader of opp didnt challenge our definition of lifestyle choices and organs...lol... we keep telling them we are making priorities and we didnt ignore them. and again and again we are talking about the problems that we have - lack of organ...sigh...just kinda messy...

Round 4: Silent Round
We chose the motion THW never award a Chris Brown a Grammy. Ever. we get the gov again.

This round i think we lost although we thought we can win. Personally, i think the problem arise in gov side is that we fail to make a link on the effects of violence towards the Grammy. if the person is talented, why should we remove the award just because of a violence act. perhaps, this round is my fault - i am kinda lost in space trying to figure out how to connect this problems. The opponent keeps coming out and says they have been together again...chris brown has been forgiven by his gf...sigh...i just manage to make craps. - this round is the worst round for me, i suppose (everything was totally out, and i am back doing the samething that i used to do during training - talking only for 6minutes 30 seconds)

Round 5: Silent Round
We chose the motion THW impose carbon tax on individuals. We are the opp.

This round we won with a clear margin after consulting with the adjud. It was really scaring because the adjud is the CA. And we assume that we are in the bubble room...the first speaker and the second speaker of both teams contradict each other...however, we managed to point out our opponent's contradiction but they dont. The gov just mention the problem is the climate change, the room is so hot, the greenhouse effects - i wonder why should they need to impose tax on ppl..lol..and the gov says that they will measure the amount of releasing carbon of car and industry, then they will impose tax - i wonder what is the effects of impose tax which they didnt mention at all; will it decrease the numbers of car? numbers of industry? i managed to rebute on the point of effects of imposing tax and how it will link to decrease of cars and the most important things is the effects towards to malaysian economic system, no one buys the car and no one wants to work in industry...lol... putting that aside, our leader of opp create a bluff problem. He says that our gov themselves didnt provide any environmental friendly product - no hybrid cars, no biotech, etc...so it's the gov's fault,hence, they should not impose tax on the ppl, instead improving on the products...(which comes into help in my whip - ppl dont produce carbon, it's the product that produce carbon. Instead of putting a tax on ppl, we should blame on the car and industry itself...what a money making country.)...putting that aside again, my deputy leader of opp, she nearly contradict with the leader, but she managed to make it through at the end of it...bravo. we were real afraid that we didnt win...

Overall, i felt kinda dissapointed to let everyone down that we didnt manage to break. we cant break because speakers score, sigh...perhaps, it's my poor score for round 1 and round 4 which i didnt perform as good as the other three rounds...sorry everyone, I will try as hard as possible for the next time in improving my structure and my knowledge. If my mind is totally clueless of anything, i wont know what i am saying - perhaps all craps just like what i did in the 4th round (I have no idea who Chris Brown is and what had happened). Yet, i still feel that this is the great experience working with my teamates- if there is another chance, hopefully we can be a team again...lol...there are lots of rooms for improvement..:D...

Mother's love

2009-03-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

I read on a touching story............

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... She was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students and teachers to support the family.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed.

How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!'

I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?'

My mom did not respond... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.

Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts. Then one day, my Mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!' GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'

And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

'My dearest son,

I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children.

I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.

You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine.

I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

With all my love to you,

Your mother.

My target

2009-02-15T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hey! I am back for being lost in time lately. There are lots of assignments going on and I am trying to do my best this semester. I am aiming at the biggest target - dean list. Last sem, it was my first time getting dean list. You cant imagine how happy I am when I see my result. This sem, i am aiming for second one.

I will put in more efforts to accomplish my work. I knew some of my classmates wont want to be group with me, because I know in the past, I didnt put in my effort to do things. Yeah, i know i am kinda a passenger to some of the people. But, what i could say is that i cant 'click' with people easily. It will take time for me to merge into some of the groups.

From these sem onwards, I really will try my best to do the best. If i cant get the dean list, i wont be regret. As long as I have put in my effort, i will be satisfied. Aslo, i hope people working together with me, they will same getting dean list. Fight for thebest....yahoo...

Avoidance: Faded Life

2009-01-07T07:02:00.000-08:00

Ever since my father’s death, I felt like I didn’t want to go back to home. What’s a home for me? Where’s my home? Living in my uncle’s house is considered as home? I know a lot of people would ask, “how about your mother?” I knew that she suffered a lot, not that I didn’t want to go back to see her, but, just the problem with my youngest brother.

Perhaps, not everyone goes though the same life as me. No one understands or knows the truth behind my life. People thought that I have the same life as them, enjoying an easy life. What they didn’t know was that I tried to keep my patient towards my youngest brother, at the same time, having a kind of hatred which would really want to kill him.

My youngest brother was declared as abnormal, whom suffers from a disease, which the doctor known it as autism. He can’t really talk since he was a kid. It was really hard for us as a family to understand what he wanted to say. We had to really guess what he wanted to convey. Sometimes, he would cry if his message could not get across, so that, we had to try to guess it again and again.

People might view him as stupid person. However, he isn’t a retard. He ever attended school, both primary and secondary, and he was so picky that he would choose the best homework with all the correct answers from his friends to copy. Also, he never got last in the exam, perhaps, bottom three or four – that’s good enough compared with a normal person.

I feel sympathy towards my mother. She is the one who has the determination to bring and fetch my youngest brother before and after school, walking with him, chasing after him if he ran. It is a hard life for her, but, she really hope that my brother can learn something in school, as well as he can socialize and mix with the normal people.

The situation started to shift ever since we moved from Bintulu to Mukah. In the beginning, he attended school as a normal student. Until one day, he came back from school screaming and shouting not wanting go to school again. Of course, my mother really feared that he would grow up as an individualistic. No matter how hard she advised him, he still insisted of not going to school.

I really doubt with what’s happening in school. Was the student bullying him? Teasing him? Was the teacher scolding him? Isolated him? Discriminated him? Isn’t it a teacher’s role to educate student, threat every student as normal? If the teachers there are good enough, why did my youngest brother not wanting to go to school? I was sure that something must happen in school.

So, since then, he was kept at home, behaving well in the beginning. He would volunteer washing every plate after meal, washing the toilet in the afternoon, mopping and sweeping the floor in the evening. It started to be his daily routine. People may say he was a good boy, but, that’s just the surface.
His behavior started to get worse each day. He would stomp his foot and shout if his message cannot get across. He would force my mother so say what he wanted until he satisfied. However, this started to get worse day by day. His demand was getting more and more, he would ask my mother to repeat the same thing again and again even though she got it right.

When I was studying in Kuching, I received a weird call from my mother. I knew it was weird because she called me when she supposed to be in church. It was really odd when I looked at the time, by which she wouldn’t ever call me around that – my dad only allowed her to call me after 10pm because the fare is cheaper. By the way she phrased her words and her intonation, as her child, I could feel that something was wrong.

With that strong instinct, I secretly message to my eldest brother since he was at home. Perhaps, he knew something. As I expected, something really did happen. My youngest brother purposely knocked his hard metal head onto my mother’s left eye brow, making a black spot. What I knew from my eldest brother was that my youngest brother was unsatisfied with something. I was really worried with my mum, so, I told my brother not to tell mom that I knew what’s happening. I knew she didn’t want me to worry.

On the next day, I receive another message from my elder brother, saying that my youngest brother was making another black spot on my mother’s right eye. What should I do? I can’t fly back there. I didn’t want to call back because I didn’t want my mother to suspend that I knew what was happening at home. So, I didn’t really call home and what I could do is just prayed hoping that everything would be alright.

During the holiday, I went back. In the car, my father told me that my brother had changed a lot. He didn’t really want to talk to anyone, and also, he didn’t want to do house routine. The only thing that he would do was washing plate. My father warned me not to wash the plate, even not to put them in the washing basin, after lunch and dinner. All I needed to do was left all the plate on the table after meal, and my youngest would do the rest. The worst part was that he wouldn’t want people to step into the kitchen when he was washing dishes.

He used to clean the toilet and sweeping and mopping the floor. Now, he didn’t want to do it. Everyday, after my father came back from work at noon time, he would force my father to bring him out. That would be the perfect time for my mother to wash the toilet and mop the floor. If my youngest brother knew that my mother did all that, again, he would behave madly. Of course, my mother is clever enough to use an unused cloth to wipe the floor.

During my father’s death, he excluded himself as family member. By the time my father’s death when he was at the side, my mother told me that he was laughing. Perhaps, he didn’t know what was happening. I didn’t really want to blame him, but, during the funeral, he didn’t want to look my father. No one dare to ask him to go and see because, everyone knew that he would misbehave there. In the church, he sat with my relatives instead with us.
It really pissed my off. My father loved him so much compare to the love he gave to me and my eldest brother. I was being punished when I did something wrong, compared to him, never! Did he ever suffer the punishment I went through? Being spanked? Locked in the washroom? Dragged and pushed outside the house and lived there alone at night? My father never treated him that way! What he wanted, my father would buy for him. Me? Nothing! Even, he will lecture first before giving me the money – just 20 sen.

My youngest brother really enjoyed a lot. Should I not to blame him because he suffered from autism? Was that a merely excuse for me not to scold him? What should I do to make him realize? He didn’t know the luxury that he had all this time. Whatever he wanted, my parents would fulfill. Was this an excuse for him not to talk so that my parents will love him more?

My mother really didn’t know what she should do. If she left him alone, he would be kept in his own world, being isolated. But, the more she cared him, the more he refused. Even, it was really hard to talk to him. He just covered his ears or switched on the radio loudly when my mother wanted to talk to him. A little voice from my mother, just like a needle dropped onto the library, he would stomp his feet.

Talking about stomping his feet, that’s the way he wanted to get attention from people. When he is really mad, he will stomp his feet and shout. What I meant by shout didn’t mean that he shouted like a normal person with words coming out. No words were formed, just merely yell and cry. He won’t care with his physical pain by stomping the floor. Even he himself won’t realize that his toes and nails were bleeding, yet, still stomping.

Actually, I didn’t really want to return home because I can’t find peace at all. Everyday, my brother would yell, shout, and stomp the floor upon small matters. I really had enough of his cried! My mother asked me to keep silence when he was mad. Yet, sometimes, I really can’t control myself, I would scream at him for I know that if I talked to him nicely, he would shout and didn’t listen to what I said. If ignoring him and kept silence, I worried that my mother could not really stand it. I knew she really suffered a lot when I was not at home. Really, there is no peace for me at all.

There is also a limitation for me in this house, i.e., there is no freedom at all. He would scream if I switched on the light, if I closed the door, if I closed the curtain. All the minor things, he would make it like so serious, so emergency, so big. That day, I helped to close the shampoo lid and he really cried and yelled for about an hour. My mother didn’t know what to do to stop him so she took the shampoo, wanting to throw it away. He snatched it away and threw it on the floor. Then, all the stupid behavior stopped. The lid was broken.

Looking back at this life and my future, what should I do if my mother passed away? I didn’t really want to keep him. Perhaps, my eldest has the same view too. I don’t want him to be a burden of my life, no privacy, no freedom, and no peace at all. The fear, that his attitude would affect my career, always stay in me – might be called back every time if he was mad? Also, couldn’t use the things that belong to me – controlled by him?
Even, because of that, I would afraid to invite friends to my house. What if he unable to control himself when my friends were around? That’s what my parents never invited people to overnight at our place. Could you imagine, he ever forced my grandmother, who came all the way from village to overnight at our place, to go back in the midnight? He would force the people to go back when “His Time” is out. Everyone needed to follow the time he set but not for me.

Just because I love my mother, I have to go back to spend my holiday with her. At the same time, I would avoid my brother. I totally give up and really didn’t know what I should do for him. The road to the future is still far and the life expectation will be more challenging but I’m afraid not for me.

Christmas

2008-12-22T23:48:00.000-08:00

Talking about christmas, people might imagine that there should be a beautifully deorated christmas tree with few boxes of christmas present underneath. Perhaps, there should be a plus-size red-clothed guy shouting "hoho...Merry Christmas", denying the fact that the skinny guy shouldn't be the Santa Clause. As well, there should be a dinner during the eve with roasted turkey as an obligation. Oh! Hold on! Where's the snow...not forget the snowman...Perhaps, this is something that people are desire for their christmas....forgeting the true meaning of christmas....I am so sorry if some of my readers are non-christian....hope you wont be offended when reading this article. "P

For me, christmas is the time of rememberance, a time to recall our savior, Jesus, is born...That's why the day is called, "Christ"mas. We can consider us as fortunate enough because we were born in the hospital. Compared to Jesus, he was being born in a stabble, not a hotel, not an inn, even not a hospital. Sigh.... Can you imagine....once you are born, you are firstly being watched by horses or donkeys, besides your parents....What a phathetic.

Oh! Do you believe in miracle when you pray during Christmas? It really happened to me and it really came true. Well...It happened two years ago, I prayed I could join the choir in kuching as I am really interested in it. But, the problem is that I didnt have the transport to go for practice and no one would accompany...."P...afraid to be alone...haha.....Just after few days later, i went to church and I saw someone familiar. He stared at me and vice versa. After the mass, he approached me, asking a couple of questions. From him, I learnt that we have met few years ago in a camp. we didnt really talk a lot previously. He asked me if I would like to join the choir because he also looked for friend to join him. AHA! And he is willing to send me too. Wow, finally, the wish really came true....someone God is sending an angel!

Well...well...I really hope this time my wish will come true again in this coming christmas..."P...cant talk too much now....."P

Starbucks Miri

2008-12-22T00:02:00.000-08:00

My personal view towards the Starbucks in Miri is that, it should be known as Starsucks! By the scale of 1 - 5 rate, i think i would rate it below 1. I had been to both of the starbucks or so called "Starsucks", the service here is really bad. I thought I can sitting there, enjoying the cup of coffee, especially caramel macchiato, while surfing the net. However, for my disappointment, both of the starbucks, i.e. the one in parkson as well as the one in the airport, didn't provide good (i dont mean the best) service for me. It really pissed me off as a regular customer.

Let me start of with the starbucks in parkson, miri. I ordered a cup of toffee nut from them, costed me around RM15.50. Then, i took my seat and switched on my notebook to online, while waiting for the drink. I saw two guys standing at the drink counter talking to the waitress. Then, a cup of drink is placed there, so i wondered would it be mine. I approached the waitress whom was still talking. I tried to ask by saying,"excuse me"but i was not been served! Oh! Perhaps, i should go back to sit first while waiting those two guys flirting with the waitress. Without realising, the guy took away the drink and start drinking, thinking the drink was his.

I stared at the guy but he didnt realise me looking at him. Another guy saw me. He asked another waiter what drink the guy took. To his realisation, it was not his, instead the drink belong to me. When both of the men's drink was served. The waiter asked him to choose one of it. Then, the waiter called me telling me that the drink had been swapped. He asked me to take the drink instead. WHAT THE HELL! Exchanging another drink with other guy! I was really mad. When I saw the previous waitress, i told her why she allowed the guy simply take the drink and also why she ignored me just now. She said, "Why didnt you call me just now?" HELL! I told her, "I called you just now and you are ignoring me while you are flirting with those two guys!" She just smiled at me. HELL.......Doesnt she know "shame"? The workers there dont know how to say "I'm sorry."??? What kind of workers is that with such an attitude towards the customer????

It really pissed me off is that when I wanted to go back, they shouted, "Thanks you. Bye!" HELL...Sooing people is louder than taking an order and calling the order. What is this place? It's really sucks! Mumbelling while taking orders and shouting when people is going back. Is this a high class place? The service is a real bad and terrible!

The one in the airport is also a nightmare for me. I thought i can online there since it is in the airport. Most of the place in airport especially Starbucks can online. I tried the one in Kuching before and the connection there is really great compared to the one in Miri. In miri, there is no connection at all. When asked the workers there, they said they didnt know anything. What's a nut! Hate it......

So, never and ever i would go to starbucks in Miri......kinda poor service!

Mother's lies

2008-12-13T00:38:00.000-08:00

母亲一生的八个谎话 (看完请不要流泪.)儿时，小男孩家很穷，吃饭时，饭常常不够吃，母亲就把自己碗里的饭分给孩子吃。母亲说，孩子们，快吃吧，我不饿！──母亲撒的第一个谎男孩长身体的时候，勤劳的母亲常用周日休息时间去县郊农村河沟里捞些鱼来给孩子们补钙。鱼很好吃，鱼汤也很鲜。孩子们吃鱼的时候，母亲就在一旁啃鱼骨头，用舌头舔鱼骨头上的肉渍。男孩心疼，就把自己碗里的鱼夹到母亲碗里，请母亲吃鱼。母亲不吃，母亲又用筷子把鱼夹回男孩的碗里。母亲说，孩子，快吃吧，我不爱吃鱼！──母亲撒的第二个谎。上初中了，为了缴够男孩和哥姐的学费，当缝纫工的母亲就去居委会领些火柴盒拿回家来，晚上糊了挣点分分钱补点家用。有个冬天，男孩半夜醒来，看到母亲还躬着身子在油灯下糊火柴盒。男孩说，母亲，睡了吧，明早您还要上班呢。母亲笑笑，说，孩子，快睡吧，我不困！──母亲撒的第三个谎高考那年，母亲请了假天天站在考点门口为参加高考的男孩助阵。时逢盛夏，烈日当头，固执的母亲在烈日下一站就是几个小时。考试结束的铃声响了，母亲迎上去递过一杯用罐头瓶泡好的浓茶叮嘱孩子喝了，茶亦浓，情更浓。望着母亲干裂的嘴唇和满头的汗珠，男孩将手中的罐头瓶反递过去请母亲喝。母亲说，孩子，快喝吧，我不渴！──母亲撒的第四个谎。父亲病逝之后，母亲又当爹又当娘，靠着自己在缝纫社里那点微薄收入含辛茹苦拉扯着几个孩子，供他们念书，日子过得苦不堪言。胡同路口电线杆下修表的李叔叔知道后，大事小事就找岔过来打个帮手，搬搬煤，挑挑水，送些钱粮来帮补男孩的家里。人非草木，孰能无情。左邻右舍对此看在眼里，记在心里，都劝母亲再嫁，何必苦了自己。然而母亲多年来却守身如玉，始终不嫁，别人再劝，母亲也断然不听，母亲说，我不爱！──母亲撒的第五个谎男孩和她的哥姐大学毕业参加工作后，下了岗的母亲就在附近农贸市场摆了个小摊维持生活。身在外地工作的孩子们知道后就常常寄钱回来补贴母亲，母亲坚决不要，并将钱退了回去。母亲说，我有钱！──母亲撒的第六个谎男孩留校任教两年，后又考取了美国一所名牌大学的博士生，毕业后留在美国一家科研机构工作，待遇相当丰厚，条件好了，身在异国的男孩想把母亲接来享享清福却被老人回绝了。母亲说，我不习惯！──母亲撒的第七个谎晚年，母亲患了胃癌，住进了医院，远在大西洋彼岸的男孩乘飞机赶回来时，术后的母亲已是奄奄一息了。母亲老了，望着被病魔折磨得死去活来的母亲，男孩悲痛欲绝，潸然泪下。母亲却说，孩子，别哭，我不疼。──母亲撒的第八个谎不论你多富有,不管你官多大,到什么时候也离不开咱的妈....愿天下父母平安度春秋....... 珍惜母亲的每一个谎言,好好的对待父母,很多东西,失去后才得来的珍贵代价太大.所以一定要好好的爱我们的父母~

Holiday

2008-12-13T00:18:00.001-08:00

What's a meaning of holiday? Is it a time of having fun, relaxing ourseleves after a long days of working or studying? Perhaps, in most of the people's mind, the word 'vacation' will come across. People will opt to go some interesting places for a visit. Meanwhile, for most of the students especially those who study abroad, they will try to return to heir sweet nest, emerging with their warm smoothing bed, sweet well-done meal, and enjoying a 'personal banker' i.e. parents who pays for everything. hehe....

Until know, I am still searching for the true meaning of holiday. What's a real meaning of holiday. Why should there be a holiday? I hate to take a vacation, having fun and relax. I prefer work! YES! Work, get your body moves. A couple weeks ago, my decision of joining the royal debate rather than going home for holiday didnt make me regreted. Although in the beginning, I was really feared that I would be lonely during the debate training with non of my friends there, I managed to squeeze myself through. I really enjoyed with the training, making new friends....they are really marveollous. I felt I wont regret of making my decision joining the debate than spending my holiday at home....

Now, i am at home, not knowing whati should do? My holiday at home is a real boring....sigh....what should i do to relax...."P

Royal Debate

2008-12-03T17:52:00.000-08:00

Finally, the royal debate is over and i have no regret for postponding my flight of going back. In this two weeks of training and competition, it makes me to realise that i need to improve myself.

The few days training is really tiring, started at 10am and finished at 3am. This is my first time, sleeping for a few hours....phew....my mind cant function properly anyway...haha....In this training, i discovered that the way of UKM debaters debate is different than the way we have before. They trained us to be more structure in elaborating points and make a good rebuttal. phew....Also....i like the game that we had every night .....MURDERERS.....Hahaha...

I feel proud with ukm teams, both senior and junior categories. One of the junior teams managed to go till semi final and one of the senior teams managed to reach final which they long desired for. Although they didnt manage to touch the winning trophy, i felt that they have came for a long journey. Compared to the champion, we did less training than others university but yet we can reach till the final. GAMBATE...

I kinda dissapointed because i cant join the coming two tournaments, NHSD and Human Right. All the best i wished to my friends that are joining...I am looking forward to join them all again next year, as well as adjuducate the royal debate....:) i will try to find time to upload some of the debates picture soon. "P

冰泪草

2008-11-20T17:57:00.001-08:00

传说，在寒冷的雪山上，生长着一种绿色的小草，每个叶片上都挂着一颗冻结的泪珠，如果你有幸找到它，你就会知道自己的真爱在何方.......

　　女孩决定去山上寻找那棵传说中的冰泪草，男孩劝她不要去，太危险了，可女孩却似乎下定了决心，一定要去。男孩很无奈，便要求一同前往....

　　当晚，男孩去了公园.....

　　要出发了，男孩为女孩套上羽绒服，问女孩：“你确定要去吗？”“是的！”女孩坚定地说。“好吧，我们出发....”

　　山脚下，男孩温柔的为女孩整了整帽子，'要上去吗？很危险的，不怕吗？”“不怕！”女孩仍是那么坚定。“那好吧，山上路滑，抓紧我的手！”

　　山腰上，男孩看着雪中瑟瑟发抖的女孩，心疼地抱紧了她，“我们回去吧，看你冻得...”“我..不回家！”女孩的脾气很倔。“好吧，来我背你！”

　　山顶上，男孩脱下了自己的外衣，轻轻披在了女孩身上，抚摸着女孩冻得有些发紫的脸说：“回去好吗？现在回去天黑前还可以到家的，别再找了，根本没有那种草的。”“不，再找找看，会找到的！”女孩仍是那么的固执。“好吧，那就再找找看....”

　　暴风雪来了，女孩慌了，风吹得她睁不开眼睛。慌乱中，紧握女孩的那只手突然松开了，女孩顿时失去了方向，只感到一股力量不断地把自己想上抬起.......

　　女孩醒了过来，发现男孩不见了。女孩无力的坐在地上哭了，她终于认识到了自己是多么的任性，自己的行为是多么的可笑...许久，女孩站了起来，突然发现脚下有一颗绿色的小草，薄薄的叶片上挂着几颗晶莹的冰珠。“冰泪草！”女孩叫出了声。她捡起这棵小草，叫着男孩的名字，到处寻找着男孩....

　　女孩得救了，男孩却失踪了。

　　女孩永远也不会知道，在那棵冰泪草的下面，有一双还留有余温的手..在暴风雪来临的那一刻，男孩用尽了所有的力气将女孩举了起来，女孩得救了，男孩却被埋在了下面....而那棵所谓的冰泪草，其实是男孩从公园里采来的..上面的冰珠，就是女孩的泪...女孩不知道，其实她想寻找的真爱，一直都在她的面前，可她却没有珍惜....

爱一人 (love someone)

2008-11-13T06:49:00.000-08:00

Some people might not understand '爱一人' in chinese version. Hence, i have tried my best to translate it. Hope you all can understand meaning of 'LOVE someone'

If you don't love her,
just let it go,
give the chance for other to love her more.

If your lover have given you up,
just release yourself,
give yourself a chance to accept love from other.

Even if there is something you fond of, it still won't belong you.
Even if there is something you reluctant, it still destinies for you to give up.

There are many sufferings in life,
so do not shut yourself because of an injury.
Some fates are doomed to lose,
some fates have never been a good ending.

To love somebody doesn't mean a must to own her
but to own someone, it is a must love her.
Man will cry because he is really in love.
Woman will cry because she really gives up.

If a sincerity is a kind of injury, I choose to lie;
If a lie is a kind of injury, I choose to be silence;
If a silence is a kind of injury, I choose leave.

If a lost is bitter, will you choose to sacrisfy?
If a confusion is bitter, will you choose to end it?
If a pursuation is bitter, will you choose to persist?
If a separation is bitter, who will you choos to talk to?

A lot of good things will be realised at the later stage,
A lot of good things will not be a pain at that time!!!! !

NIGHT put your car keys beside your bed at night.

2008-11-13T06:19:00.000-08:00

If you hear a noise outside your home or someone trying to get in your house, just press the panic button for your car. The alarm will be set off, and the horn will continue to sound until either you turn it off or the car battery dies. This tip came from a neighborhood watch coordinator. Next time you come home for the night and you start to put your keys away, think of this:>>It's a security alarm system that you probably already have and requires no installation. Test it. It will go off from most everywhere inside your house and will keep honking until your battery runs down or until you reset it with the button on the key fob chain. It works if you park in your driveway or garage If your car alarm goes off when someone is trying to break in your house, odds are the burglar/rapist won't stick around...After a few seconds all the neighbors will be looking out their windows to see who is out there and sure enough the criminal won't want that. And remember to carry your keys while walking to your car in a parking lot. The alarm can work the same way there ....This is something that should really be shared with everyone. Maybe it could save a life or a sexual abuse, crime. P.S. Send this to everyone- it is fantastic. Would also be useful for any emergency, such as a heart attack, where you can't reach a phone. A lady has suggested to her husband that he carry his car keys with him in case he falls outside and she doesn't hear him. He can activate the car alarm and then she'll know there's a problem. Please pass this on even IF you've read it before. It's a reminder.

爱一人

2008-11-07T22:31:00.001-08:00

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

Thief!

2008-11-04T23:47:00.000-08:00

What is so good of becoming a thief? I always wonder why people wants to take away something that doesnt belong to them. Is it really fun to take away other's people properties? Because of the poor family? Because they are jelous with other people? Does they really care about the sufferers or they just care for themselves?

Jokes: Riddle

2008-11-02T05:39:00.000-08:00

Please guess before you look at the answers:

Questions
1. How do bees travel?
2. Why can't a leopard hide?
3. What do dogs and trees have in common?
4. What time is it when you see a crocodile?
5. Why do tigers eat raw meat?
6. What is better than talking dog?

Answers
1. They take the buzz (bus).
2. Because he's always spotted.
3. Bark!
4. Time to run.
5. Because they can't cook.
6. Spelling Bee

Joke: Get Stung

2008-11-01T07:55:00.000-07:00

This is what read from a book:

Teacher: How did you get stung?
Student: By smelling a flowber.
Teacher: There's no "b" in flower.
Student: There was in this one.

Life must go on.....

2008-11-01T01:38:00.000-07:00

I miss my dad very much. He is such a nice guy. Whenever i wanted to go any way, he would use his motocycle to pick me. Even going to school, tuition, and church, he will always be there for me.

I know I used to hate him. I hate him from locking me outside the house, locking me inside the toilet, spanking me most of the day when I was a child. I knew I used to hate him cause he threw away my precious watch - the one that I bought in Penang which costs RM250. Also, I used to hate him because he didnt cover me in rain, instead he used the raincoat for himself.

However, since his death, i realise that, without him, who will come for my Konvo, sitting at the front row looking proud for my graduation. It's him who brought me this long journey till here in UKM. It's him who brought me a long way from Bintulu to Kuching for interview. It's him who brought me to MPBL for the first day registeration, making my other classmates jealous.

This is all an illusion now, it's just a dream. Time cannot be reversed back. What I need to do now is to graduate, at least with flying colours. No more worries, No more wonders....ACT NOW cause LIFE MUST GO ON.....

Joke: Three-ring Circus

2008-10-31T10:09:00.001-07:00

They say that marriage is a three-ring circus:
- engagement ring
- wedding ring
- suffering

Joke: Letter btwn a son and a dad

2008-10-31T09:53:00.000-07:00

This is a joke from a book i read:

Dear Dad,
I am making lot$ of friend$ and $tudying like nobody'$ bu$ine$$ and I am $imply $o happy $ince I came to U$. $end my love and ki$$e$ to mum and my baby $i$ter$.

Love,
Your $on

[This is the Dad's reply]

Dear Son,

I kNOw that astroNOmy, ecoNOmics, and oceaNOgraphy are eNOugh to keep an hoNOur's student busy. Do NOt forget the pursuit of kNOwledge is NOble task.

Love,
Your Dad

Joke: Testimony

2008-10-31T09:31:00.000-07:00

Recently, i read a joke in a book:

1. Semry, our assistant sales exec can always exec can always be found
2. hard at work in and out of his office. Semry works independently without
3. wasting company time in the mamak stalls. He never
4. thinks twice about helping fellow employees, and he always
5. finishes assignments on time. Often, he takes extended
6. measures to complete his works, sometimes skipping lunch
7. breaks. He is a employee who has absolutely no
8.vanity, in spite of his accomplishments and profound
9. knowledge and experience in his field. I firmly believe that Semry can be
10. classed as an exemplary employee, the type who cannot be
11. dispensed with. As such I duly recommend that Semry be
12 promoted to Group Sales Manager, and a proposal will be
13. executed as soon as possible.

(Please re-read only the odd-numbered lines)

父母永遠只有一個

2008-10-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

父母永遠只有一個（雖然很長但是要看完喔）
媳婦說「煮淡一點妳就嫌沒有味，現在煮鹹一點妳卻說咽不下，
妳究竟想怎麼樣？」
母親一見兒子回來，二話不說便把飯菜往咀裡送。
她怒瞪他一眼。
他試了一口，馬上吐出來，
兒子說：「我不是說過了嗎，媽有病不能吃太鹹！」
「那好！媽是你的，以後由你來煮！」
媳婦怒氣沖沖地回房。

兒子無奈地輕嘆一聲，然後對母親說：
「媽，別吃了，我去煮個麵給妳。」
「仔，你是不是有話想跟媽說，是就說好了，別憋在心裡！
「媽，公司下個月升我職，我會很忙，
至於老婆，她說很想出來工作，所以 ....」
母親馬上意識到兒子的意思：
「仔，不要送媽去老人院。」
聲音似乎在哀求。
兒子沉默片刻，他是在尋找更好的理由。

「媽，其實老人院並沒有甚麼不好，
妳知道老婆一但工作，
一定沒有時間好好服侍妳。
老人院有吃有住有人服侍照顧，不是比在家裡好得多嗎？」
「可是，阿財叔他 ....」

洗了澡，草草吃了一碗速食麵，兒子便到書房去。
他茫然地佇立於窗前，有些猶豫不決。
母親年輕便守寡，含辛茹苦將他撫養成人，供他出國讀書。
但她從不用年輕時的犧牲當作要脅他孝順的籌碼，
反而是妻子以婚姻要脅他！
真的要讓母親住老人院嗎？
仔問自己，他有些不忍。

「可以陪你下半世的人是你老婆，難道是你媽嗎？」

阿財叔的兒子總是這樣提醒他
「你媽都這麼老了，好命的話可以活多幾年，
為何不趁這幾年好好孝順她呢？
樹欲靜而風不息，子欲養而親不在啊！」
親戚總是這樣勸他。
兒子不敢再想下去，深怕自己真的會改變初衷。

夕晚，太陽收斂起灼熱的金光，躲在山後憩息。
一間建在郊外山崗的一座貴族老人院。

是的，錢用得越多，兒子才心安理得。
當兒子領著母親步入大廳時，
嶄新的電視機，42吋的螢幕正播放著一部喜劇，
但觀眾一點笑聲也沒有。

幾個衣著一樣，髮型一樣的老嫗歪歪斜斜地坐在梳化上，
神情呆滯而有一個老人在自言自語，
有個正緩緩彎下腰，想去撿掉在地上的一塊餅乾吃。
兒子知道母親喜歡光亮，
所以為她選了一間陽光充足的房間。
從窗口望出去，樹蔭下，一片芳草如茵。
幾名護士推著坐在輪椅的老者在夕陽下散步，
四周悄然寂靜得令人心酸。
縱是夕陽無限好，畢竟已到了黃昏，他心中低低嘆息。

「媽，我........我要走了！」
母親只能點頭。
他走時，母親頻頻揮手，
她張著沒有牙的嘴，
蒼白乾燥的咀唇在囁嚅著，一副欲語還休的樣子。
兒子這才注意到母親銀灰色的頭髮，
深陷的眼窩以及打著細紋臉。
母親，真的老了！

他霍然記起一則兒時舊事。
那年他才6歲，母親有事回鄉，不便攜他同行，
於是把他寄住在阿財叔家幾天。
母親臨走時，
他驚恐地抱著母親的腿傷心大聲號哭道：
「媽媽不要丟下我！媽媽不要走！」

最後母親沒有丟下他。
他連忙離開房間，順手把門關上，不敢回頭，
深恐那記憶像鬼魅似地追纏而來。

他回到家，
妻子與岳母正瘋狂的把母親房裡的一切扔個不亦樂乎。
身高3呎的獎杯──
那是他小學作文比賽「我的母親」第1名的勝利品！
華英字典──
那是母親整個月省吃省用所買給他的第一份生日禮物！
還有母親臨睡前要擦的風濕油，
沒有為她擦，帶去老人院又有甚麼意義呢？

「夠了，別再扔了！」兒子怒吼道。
﹝這麼多垃圾，不把它扔掉，怎麼放得下我的東西﹞。
岳母沒好氣地說。

「就是嘛！你趕快把你媽那張爛床給抬出去，
我明天要為我媽添張新的！」

一堆童年的照片展現在兒子眼前，
那是母親帶他到動物園和遊樂園拍的照片。

「它們是我媽的財產，一樣也不能丟！」

「你這算甚態度？對我媽這麼大聲，我要你向我媽道歉！」

「我娶妳就要愛妳的母親，
為甚麼妳嫁給我就不能愛我的母親？」

雨後的黑夜分外冷寂，街道蕭瑟，行人車輛格外稀少。
一輛寶馬在路上飛馳，頻頻闖紅燈，陷黃格，
呼一聲又飛馳而過。
那輛轎車一路奔往山崗上的那間老人院，
停車直奔上樓，推開母親臥房的門。
他幽靈似地站著，母親正撫摸著風濕痛的雙腿低泣。
她見到兒子手中正拿著那瓶風濕油，
顯然感到安慰的說：
「媽忘了帶，幸好你拿來！」
他走到母親身邊，跪了下來。

「很晚了，媽自己擦可以了，你明天還要上班，回去吧！」

他囁嚅片刻，終於忍不住啜泣道：
「媽，對不起，請原諒我！我們回家去吧！」

∼∼後語∼∼

隨著自己愈長大，
看著父母親臉龐從年輕變憔悴，
頭髮從烏絲變白髮,動作從迅捷變緩慢，多心疼！

父母親總是將最好、最寶貴的留給我們，
像蠟燭不停的燃燒自己，照亮孩子！
而我呢？
有沒有騰出一個空間給我的父母，
或者只是在當我需要停泊岸時，
才會想起他們……
其實父母親要的真的不多，
只是一句隨意的問候：爸、媽，你們今天好嗎？」
隨意買的宵夜，煮一頓再普通不過的晚餐，
睡前幫他們盖盖被子，
天冷幫他們添衣服、戴手套……
都能讓他們高興溫馨很久。

有時，我常在想：我希望我的子女以後如何對我。
那現在，我有沒有如此對待我的父母？
我相信，人是環環相扣的；
現在，你如何對待你的父母；
以後，你的子女就如何待你。

朋友，人世間最難報的就是父母恩，
願我們都能：以反哺之心奉敬父母，以恩之心孝順父母！

∼共勉之∼
生命不要求我們成為最好的，只要求我們作最大的努力！
老人安養院牆上發現的一篇文章
孩子！當你還很小的時候，
我花了很多時間，教你慢慢用湯匙、用筷子吃東西。
教你繫鞋帶、扣扣子、溜滑梯、教你穿衣服、梳頭髮、擰鼻涕。
這些和你在一起的點點滴滴，是多麼的令我懷念不已。
所以，當我想不起來，接不上話時，
請給我一點時間，等我一下，
讓我再想一想……極可能最後連要說什麼，我也一併忘記。
孩子！
你忘記我們練習了好幾百回，
才學會的第一首娃娃歌嗎？
是否還記得每天總要我絞盡腦汁，
去回答不知道你從哪裡冒出來的嗎？
所以，當我重覆又重覆說著老掉牙的故事，
哼著我孩提時代的兒歌時，體諒我。
讓我繼續沉醉在這些回憶中吧！
切望你，也能陪著我閒話家常吧！
孩子，現在我常忘了扣扣子、繫鞋帶。
吃飯時，會弄髒衣服，梳頭髮時手還會不停的抖，
不要催促我，要對我多一點耐心和溫柔，
只要有你在一起，就會有很多的溫暖湧上心頭。
孩子！如今，我的腳站也站不穩，走也走不動。
所以，請你緊緊的握著我的手，陪著我，慢慢的。
就像當年一樣，我帶著你一步一步地走。
若為人子女也不懂得如何體諒他們，
那他們便只能於痛苦中渡過餘生，黑暗中逝去....

My life

2008-10-29T10:09:00.001-07:00

Somehow, i felt that i was lost...
Somewhere, i felt myself living in an alien world.
Somehow, i managed to survive...
Somewhere, i was not comfortable in this setting.
Somehow, i needed to find my true identity...
Somewhere, i lost myself.